Dear friend sarah

hello, I'm at mum's house at the moment, taking photographs.

Things are a bit weird because I'm not sure if me and Lea are splitting up. He's not sure if we are right for each other anymore and that maybe our relationship has reached an end. But he says that he still loves me, so he's not sure what to do. I think a bit of space will help us. For me i think that maybe it will be a good thing if we do, possibly. Because i have become rather dependent on him for my happiness and confidence, and feel that is not good for both of us, and i really don't need to do it because i can survive by myself, and get on with people just fine, and find good loving friends without him. But i do still love him very much and therefore i still want to be with him. But the conclusion that i have come to is that either way if we stay together or split up that i'm going to start thinking of myself more, and doing what makes me happy and being more confident and independent. I don't want to feel like i need lea, i should just want to enjoy his company and that's it. So even though these last couple of days have been hard, i think they have been immensely good for me.

So this week coming up, i may go and see Robyn in Bristol for a lovely catch up, then i've got my driving test on thursday, then tilly is coming to visit on friday for the weekend, which i am really looking foreward to. It will be nice to see an old friend, one who knows me quite well. And hopefully i pass my test so we can drive around doing nice things!

I'm going to help mum learn how to use her new Macbook! And we are going to do some felt making. Also I hemmed the floral dress and finished it, FINALLY!

I took some rubbish phonecamera photos:







lots of love, hope you have fun with vic xxxx