Dear Friend Sarah

hello! I'm staying at lucy's house at the moment and its a wonderfully sunny morning!

i had such a lovely weekend with tilly! First on friday i picked her up from the train station with my little car! (after getting hopelessly lost in cardiff!) then we went to my favourite indian restuarant in cardiff, they sell the best food just like in india! not like english indians!

then we went home and there was an art exhibition opening at coed so we listened to the opening talks, but didn't feel particularly sociable so we took our wine to the stone circle and watched the sun go down and talked. then we watched a movie in bed. later i phoned lea because he was supposed to be back after going to the valley for the day, and he was stuck somewhere with no way of getting home, so i went out in the car in my pyjamas driving for the first time at night to pick him up! it was a good experience!

on saturday lea made us breakfast in bed then we got up and took the goats for a long walk in the woods. it was such lovely weather! then me and tilly made a thermos of tea and set out to the beaches near to where i live. we drove around little country lanes in the sunshine listening to nice music and finding beautiful beaches. then we got chips and ate them on the cliff top.

when we got home i lit a fire and we drank wine and knitted and talked until we were a bit wobbly and weary eyed!

in the morning we got up early and i drove to the nearest town for a car boot sale! the weather was amazing, not a cloud in the sky! i got lots of treasures! then we went for a full breakfast in this nice cafe in cowbridge and sat in the garden in the sun!

then we went home and helped in the garden and it was the little boy who lives at coed, birthday and his mum had made an amazing picnic with homemade pizza's and lemonade and hummous and salsa and we all sat on the grass in the sun and had a lovely lunch! after that we played then we party games, where we had a balloon attached to our bums and had to try and burst other peoples by hitting them! then we played whats the time mr. wolf.

then it was suddenly time for tilly to go get her train, so i drove her into cardiff and sent her off!

after that i went to a park in cardiff, but felt a bit lonely and rubbish because tilly had gone and there were lots of happy couples walking around! oh well...

so things have been weird with lea, at first i was trying to be nice to him in a hope that he would still want to be with me, then i suddenly woke up and realised what i was doing and how wrong it was and that actually i dont want that at all and realised how things have been and how he has treated me these last two years and how utterly selfish he is. so i didnt speak to him all of sunday and i left and havn't been back since. not that he has cared! he hasn't rung to see where i am or if i'm ok, but that's typical of him only thinking about himself!

i'm going to the cinema with hannah tonight to watch the reader! after that i'm going to go back to coed, but only to get some thins because i'm going to stay with lucy in her house for a couple of weeks just whilst i finish uni and to get away from lea and this girl because i can't stand the sight of either of them, and don't want to put myself through all of this for no reason!

so its going to be good to have some space and concentrate on uni and spend time with my friends here!

anyway hope you had a nice time with vic! let me know what you have been up to!

i used that poladroid thing and here are some pictures of mine and tillys weekend!