Dear Sarie

hello! sorry i've been really busy!
Everyone's gone pet mad! i cant believe that you have a dog! and vic is getting a new kitten, and the women has offered her a puppy jack russel too!

So i've only got a week and a bit left of uni this year! Me and my designer are printing the photos for the book tommorow then she is going to bind them. She was doing screen printing last week for the chapter pages, which is one tissue paper. Hopefully it's going to look really good! I'll try and take some pictures and show you! I've finished all my final printing so i just have to write my essay, which i have left to the LAST minute, it's due inthis fFriday...eeek!

So this weekend i drove to bristol because i felt i had to see lea face to face and couldn't contact him, so i decided to go there. I'm glad i did, i just felt like i couldn't sit around anymore just thinking and thinking about him and us, that i needed to go and do something about it.

We had a nice time, we stayed in the cave one night which was really nice, then we went on a walk the next day through this wood and to a place called paradise, where all the wild garlic was in flower and the bluebells were out.

Then we came back to aberganvenny where i'm staying and watched a film. Then yesterday we went into town and walked around the old castle, then we drove to the countryside and walked pretty much all the way up this mountain called 'the sugarloaf mountain'. we just talked lots and enjoyed eachothers company.

I think things are ok. for everything that i feel is wrong about our relationship i just don't feel it's right for us to split up, we both love eachother too much. and i feel i can get over the things i need to get over with lea, and that we can help eachother. it just felt right when were together and wrong when we are apart. Maybe it won't work out in the end, but for now i'm willing to try and make it work. But i'm just going to concentrate on making myself happy, and not depending on lea for that, and trying to get over my horrid social paranioa that i seem to have developed.

So when i finish on the 12th i'm going to go to london to see Jan Tiersan the man who composed the music to amelie. I think im going to meet up with fran and jonty. then me and lea are going to go travelling around north wales for a couple of weeks in my little car. Then i guess we are just going to see how things go from there.

Anyway here are some rubbish photos of paradise!

p.s the picture at the top is from this scrap yard where i went to get something for my car, and they had this massive pile of greasy hubcabs and then i really feminine lamp shade, i thought it was amazing!